I haven't really been posting all too much. Been putting my energy into making pretty things. Here is a slide show of the latest stuff I have done. I am still perfecting the technique for the rings. I am also starting in with wire weaving as well. I made some earrings I will make those better as time goes by as well.



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I'm really liking this series of books. I was unable to work all weekend due to a back spasm that would not go away.I picked up this book on Friday night Marked a House of Night. I could not put it down. I knew I was going to need to get the second book fast so I insisted B to take me to the bookstore again. I picked up the other 3 books. If you liked Harry Potter  and Twilight you will enjoy this series as well.

I am very disappointed that i didn't get the TM job I had applied for. I was too honest on what the social committee was about when they asked me. I am happy that my friend got the job because she wasn't getting any of the full time jobs that she was applying for in our department. She knows it has everything to do with our boss. So she applied and got the job. I am disappointed because I am still stuck in that crappy ass department.

I have since quit the social committee, mainly because I felt that nothing was getting done because that one girl wasn't talking to me, and she confirmed my suspicions that it was because I was nice to the one that left 5 months ago. She said it was because someone told her that I ratted her out to the girl, that it was her that was writing her up over stupid stuff. I didn't need to do that, she already knew. All I did was tell her what she needed to do to improve her life in that area. If being nice to someone and trying to make them feel welcome and that they have friends in a new place was the wrong, then I was apart of the wrong committee. Personally I feel that the other girl should have been kicked off of it, because of her behavior. Not just towards me, but towards the new people that come into the lab. The last thing we did was for halloween, and she really didn't do anything for it. She sat in the background while we made up the sign up sheet for the potluck. That is all she did. She wouldn't approach me or my friend to discuss prizes or anything else we did. The wednesday before halloween me and my friend got one of the teamleaders to find the other key for the locker that had all the  money in it. If it wasn't found we were going to cut the lock off.  We planned out the prizes and treat bags and got the money and her and I did all the work without the other girl. Here is the kicker they put it in the news letter that I resigned from the committee. I think they were trying to guilt me for quitting, but of course there are people asking why I quit. Some know the real reason, they see why, it is that obvious.

They announced who got the teamleader position that everyone thought I applied for. The girl that got it thinks she is hot shit, but she is the one that told the other girl that I said things that I didn't say. When they finally announced it she was the one that clapped and screamed the loudest for her self...really who does that?? I looked at everyone's face as they made the announcement. There was only one person that that was happy. That is one of the guys that doesn't do anything and just sits back and causes trouble, which no one says anything about because his wife is a teamleader. FYI his wife is super nice and I have nothing against her at all.

So yesturday I was working in the front office doing my job according to job duties and this new teamleader who hadn't said anything to me for months comes out and tells me to do a job duty that I am not supposed to do. I know that she was trying to prove to me that she is boss, but really she took me away from my actual job duties and cart was late because i got stuck doing something because I was a good person  and did it anyways. I was so angry, that I had to go and talk with another teamleader yesturday and get off my chest everything that has been happening. She tried to tell me that I am a better person that all those people and to no let them get to me. She is right, but at this point I don't feel comfortable there anymore, and I am still going to try to get a position somewhere else. It's just a matter of getting it. I am done with being the one woman who tries to make people feel welcome and gets crapped on for it.

B and I decided to host a pumpkin carving Friday night. We got all the carving kits, stensils and pumpkins for everyone. Everyone had a great time. Just about everyone had not carved a pumpkin in years, I would say going on to 30 years for me. So I thought I would share the pics with the blogosphere.
We of course let the 8 year old win.Cuz none of us thought of using gumballs for the eyes.
She drew hers free hand and did a pretty darn good job.
Unfortunately the other pumpkins pictures didn't come out too well in the dark. Can you guess which one I did??

Six months ago a good friend stopped talking to me.  I blogged about this quite a few months ago, about me trying to talk to her and she had turned her back on me. I couldn't figure out why really, but had some hunches on why. Over the past few months I noticed other ppl on a different shift being rude to me and some things got back to me about a month ago that one guy, whom I got along with when he worked days, had applied for the teamleader position. He told one of the other teamleaders that he applied to keep me from getting the position. They hate me that much to try and sabatoge me moving forward in this job. I was really hurt to hear that,  but I know that they started to behaving that way  when the one girl moved from days to the other shift. This is the same girl I know that caused the trouble between me and the girl who stopped talking to me, because they were on the same walk a thon team just before this all happened and they were talking secretly alot.

My first hunch on why that girl stopped talking to me was that I was nice to the girl she was  trying to get fired. I essentially gave her advice on how to avoid the trouble, like watch your attitude, don't just stand around when there is work to be done, don't lie and stuff like that. She was trying after I talked to her but it just continued the nit picking and just generally trying to get her fired. Poor girl eventually just left back for home giving work no notice what so ever, and I didn't blame her.  There was one time when we went out for drinks after work and the girl that started all the problems was thereI'll refer to her as neanderthal. All the other girl said to me that night was thanks for talking with me I feel alot better now. I do believe that the neandertal was the one that went back to girll that stopped talking to me told her I ratted her out.

About  a month ago I was approached by one of the teamleaders regarding the social committee that me and girl that stopped talking to me are on. I finally came out and said that I wasn't sure that I was even on the committee any more. She asked why and I wasn't sure if I should say, but I eventually said why.I did recruit another girl for the social committee because I think she would be perfect but I didn't have access to any of the stuff in the locker because the other girl had the key and she convienently kept forgetting it.  I think that that teamleader has been trying to get us back together, ever since I told her my hunches. So for the past week we have been actually doing some social committee stuff, and she still wasn't talking all that much to me. We are currently raising money with a 50/50 draw and we had to go and walk to one of the other labs to sell tickets.

During that walk, she started to talk to me a bit. Bringing up that she feels tension from the other girl that I recruited. I personally haven't seen it myself. Then she asks if we are good, I honestly said I wasn't sure. Then she proceeded to tell me that she stopped talking to me because she heard that I was the one that told the girl she was trying to get fired that it was her doing what she was doing. I told her that she already knew before I talked to her and what I really said, the advice I gave her. She still didn't say sorry for her behavior all she said was that is in the past now.

Personally I feel that she shouldn't be on the social committee because of what she did. Social committee is put together to help make the lab a happier place to be .Someone that purposefully tried to get someone fired because they didn't like her isn't one that should be running the committee. That's my opinion anyways. It is nice to actually find out what was really behind all that behavior, and that I was right all along.

I finally have an interview in a different dept in the lab on Monday. I hope things go well. This position won't give me more money but is M-F and is out of my current dept away from all the bullshit and a-holes.

Crossing my fingers

Finally started reading Breaking Dawn and Oh MY GAWD.. If it wasn't  for this weekend and family things to do I would be half way done. it's Thanksgiving in Canada and we went to Edmonton to visit my mom. I had to put my book down to navigate B to my mom's house and haven't had a chance to pick it up with visiting. I left it at a part that shouldn't have been left off grrrr.

I finally saw my pregnant friend, she looked so good and happy. I'm happy for her. I forgot her gift and didn't remember it until we were just outside of the city.

I smell the turkey cooking and it smells good. B and I are off to West Edmonton Mall to check out the new bath and body works store there.

the results are in. Apparently I have very low B12 levels and must start taking supplements for it. When I told her that the GI specialist is scoping from both ends she asked why. I told her that he suspects that I've caused ulcers with the amount of advil I've been taking to control my headaches. She then said "that makes sense about your low B12. Your stomach lining plays a huge part in the absorption of B12."

I did a little bit more research on this and found that the stomach must produce a substance to allow the small intestine to absorb it. If left untreated I will develop anemia and eventually neurological problems. I read the symptoms of deficiency of B12 and tiredness is one of the symptoms. Now I'm really concerned on where the problem is starting from. Either I'm not producing the substance, or my small intestine is not doing it's job.

A step closer to finding out my problem.

So I've been a little upset the past few days, and my inerds are letting me know that the stress is not liked.  B had a key cut for me on the weekend, and I used it for the first time on tuesday. We were laying in bed and B started to talking. He said he brought up something last week and was wondering what I would decide. He proposed that I move in. The mortgage would would be divided in 3, and a consequence of me moving would be me getting rid of the cats. J and B don't want cats in the condo. I just don't know if I can do it, get rid of the cats. I layed in the bed and i felt the tears come with just the thought of it. I tried to hide it, but it kept on coming. B noticed and he asked if 'we' were ok. Of course we are I am just upset about losing my babies. I love them so much that I'm not sure that I can do it.

I just can not believe how some people, grown people can be. There has been a supervisor position posted at the lab for the evening shift. Some co workers told me to apply. I did not. I do not wish to work that crappy shift for one and I can't stand the people on evening shift. Apparently they can't stand me. I have reason too,  they have been treating me like shit bad mouthing me for some odd reason. i think It is all stemming down from the one girl that stopped talking to me because she was talking to another girl that is now working the evening shift. And that girl has been bad mouthing me, because of the influence of the other girl. Now it's gotten so bad that one man told another supervisor that he applied for the position because he didn't want me to get it. Someone has been spreading falsehoods that I applied for the position. Now I'm trying to not let all this crap bother me but what the hell did I do to all these people?? Believe in fairness and try to enforce it. I am tired of these co workers of mine thinking they are all special and can get away with not doing any work. Don't get me wrong there are some good workers but those few can not be doing the bulk of the work. We all get paid the same so the work should be divided evenly. I think the evening staff are worried that I will come in and make them actually do some work. And well they are right hahahaha and I would say something about the ones that go out and get stoned on their breaks. Snorting cocaine on the job, huge no no with me.

Well I guess the results are back from my  blood work my GI specialist sent me to do. He had sent a copy to my GP. I got a call from my GP yesturday to discuss the results. I know that he had ordered some specific blood work for celiac and to check my IGG levels, I think that indicates if your body is responding to an allergy. So I am thinking that the celiac testing has finally come back positive. I have always suspected, but couldn't  get anyone else to believe me, that's why it was always hard to follow. For example last Christmas I went back home and my mom was all excited, she had made pyrogies. She knows I loved her homemade pyrogies, so that is all she made for dinner the day I got into town. A lot of ppl do not realize, and me as well that flour is put into so many things as  a filler. But of course mom forgot that pyrogies are made of flour to which I told her time and time again about my suspicions. Let me tell you it is hard to tell someone that you first start dating about that kind of suspicion especially to someone that loves to eat everything. So in the end I aways try to make everyone else happy, and just suck it up with the pain and other non pleasant things that happen to me. I have been progressively getting worse the last few months, especially after the vacation. Where we ate alot of fast food. If the lab results confirm this it will make it alot easier to tell everyone why I can't eat it, and I will be getting a copy of the result to show my mom so that she can finally believe me.

I am a little nervous that possibly that is not the reason why they called and that it is something way worse, like my white blood cell levels are so low that they have to test for cancer or something like that. Because doctors only call when things are abnormal in lab results not if everything is a ok. Now I have to sit and stew thinking about this until next monday because that is when they could fit me in an appt.

Well, some how B is letting me play on his dodgeball team this year, and our first game is tonight. I am actually looking forward to whipping some balls at people. I have so much frustration from both jobs in me that I need a good place to vent it.

I am convinced that there is something wrong with the work ethics in this city. No one really seems to want to work. At Fs all the girls leave me to go and flirt with the boys and leave me to do all the work. I got slammed hard on saturday and got a really bad asshole, that I actually had to walk away to prevent myself from yelling at him and telling him where to go. I was only trying to explain the easiest and quickest way to get his effing DVD player he bought from us 7 months ago effing fixed for him and he turned around and said he didn't need any of my attitude. When his wife piped in I just about lost it. So I decided I didn't want to serve his attitude anymore and walked away. I really felt I needed to do that because my anger from being left alone dealing with everything and then having to put up with stupid crap like that from customers that demand I do things for them.  i just finished at 7 day stretch at the lab dealing with that crap as well.. I was bound to blow.

I had my appt with my GI specialist. His diagnosis is that the advil I have been taking has upset my colon lining but I do not have active colitus. So the doctor suspects, he will confirm that when I have the scope done, and will check out how much damage my stomach lining has from the advil as well. Sounds like they will want me to partake in a research regarding my colitus and the fact that I've been living with it for over a decade without meds. They want to find out what makes me different from other suffers. The funny thing is I don't think I have been living without it. I have  just been tolerating and dealing with it on my own without the expensive drugs. Anyways the scope is set for the end of November, so that isn't too bad. I just had to wait 9 months to actually, find out what is going on in there. 

We were waiting in line for the Calgary International Film Festival, B won tickets for. Anyways we were all dressed up because B wanted a fancy dinner before. I wore a skirt with my strappy tie up sandals that I've had for 5 years, and still love em. There was a volunteer guy that I noticed that kept looking down at my feet. I would ask B if he saw that and was like "no I didn't notice anything" This happened 3 times while we were waiting. When we were walking in the the theater, he did the obvious look down directly at my feet. I felt very awkward and wanted to just run. I looked back to see if B finally noticed. " Holy couldn't have been more obvious. He either likes your shoes or has a foot fetish"  he said. I don't think I have very pretty feet,

I finally have an appointment this week for the GI Specialist. Just in time for the pain that sent me to the ER a few weeks ago to come back. Funny how it went away while I was on vacation away from work, and first day back the pain is back. I suspect I have an ulcer, the signs are there. I do take a lot of Advil to control my headaches as of lately, and apparently it causes ulcers. We will be discussing that, but I won't stop taking it because my headaches are killers, lasting for days on hand. Last one was the first day back to work after vacation, lasting for about 2 days. Before we left I also had another headache and lasted until the 2nd day of vacation. That was a total of 3 days dealing with a headache. B can tell when I have one of my headaches. He says I look more asian than he does when I have one. Guess what I feel another one coming on. These are coming more frequently now.

I went home in between jobs today to make sure the kitties were good and fed. My oldest kitty was soo happy to see me that he started to drool all over me. He would not stop trying to cuddle and getting my shirt all wet and hairy. I really wish that B wasn't allergic and that I could bring my lil ones over here.

I have started on the third book in the Twilight series. I just absolutely love these books. I think I will be sad once I am done them all. Then maybe I could get started on the Harry Potter series again to refresh my mind by the time the movie comes out.

So today is the first chance I have had since we got back to make a post. B doesn't know I have this blog so while on vacation I stealthly made posts,  I love tabbed browsing. Anyhoo I managed to get the day off since yes my first weekend back I have to work. The scheduling absolutely sucks, another reason to leave.

Starting from the beginning of the vacation. We drove out to Kelowna where the wedding was being held. B had plans to golf for 2 days, which I was perfectly fine to being on my own for those days. I slept in ,read New Moon in the Twilight series, played on my computer, and watched season 4 of Entourage. On the third day there is when we switched to the resort where the wedding was happening, before we went there we went for a winery tour at Cedar Creek. We got 3 bottles of wine as gifts from there. I don't drink but it was very interesting to see how wine is really made.  I think when B was booking the room at the resort he was still trying to impress me, because this room had a 2 man jacuzzi in the living room. I took advantage of that the first night. The guys had to go and stay with the groom so I had the whole thing to myself. I popped in some CSI and let the bubbles massage my body, it was great. The wedding was rather kind of not planned well. It was on a beautiful little beach, but getting there was just awkward in heels. Man my feet absolutely hurt after that, by the time the reception was around my shoes were off. The resort did not plan their shuttle very well for this wedding. It didn't pick us up which is why my feet probably hurt so much, because we had to walk down a huge hill to get to the beach. The shuttle even forgot to pick up the Bride and she was half an hour late for the ceremony. Groom had to use my cell phone to call her and see where she was, she was there in a panic on how she was going to go down to the wedding. The Bride and Groom had decided that if there was too much clinking of the glasses that they were going to delegate that someone else kiss their significant other. Sure enough they delegated B during dinner, he literally marched my way and grabbed my whole head turned it up and planted a big huge kiss on me. It was rather a nice wedding, and met some more of B's friends.

The next day after the wedding we had to pack up and drive to Victoria. We got to see a bit of the killer whales while we were on the ferry but of course the bobbing of the boat I couldn't get a good enough photo. We finally reached our destination and I was pretty sure the hotel was haunted, it just had that smell. Room was quite small and could barely get hot water for a shower. Because the room was so small we had to leave the wine in the car. So the first night I told B that we are fixing up the car to make sure that it didn't look like we had anything in it. I locked up the rest of our sunglasses in the glove box and we put my seats up to hide what ever in the trunk space. The next day we went on the Big Bus tour around the city, where we went to the Royal Wax Museum, and Craigdarroch Castle. After that we walked around downtown. We went for dinner at a tapas place there B really wanted to try it out, and after that we went on a ghost tour. That was really interesting but really no picture opportunities. We learned that Victoria is the most Haunted city in the world. We woke up the next day to the hotel calling telling us our car(my car) was broken into. I ran out and saw that they smashed in my drivers window, and try to pry open my passenger but scraped up my door instead. They climbed in my drivers window pried open my glove box stole 2 pairs of sunglasses and a pack of gum. They climbed into the back and pulled down the seats and got to the trunk and stole the wine that we had.  We spent a bit trying to get things in order to get my car fixed, we dropped it off at the dealership and decided to continue with the tour. As we passed all these places they talked about in the ghost tour we would say haunted. It was funny. We went down to the fisherman's wharf and ate at the fish and chip place, apparently really expensive. We walked around there and snapped a lot of photos of the sea lion that frequents by the fish store. We went to the Oakbay area and found a great little tea store where I bought my friend a gift for. We walked around downtown more where I realized there are a lot of homeless people living in there. We were walking down a pretty rough part apparently because there was a biohazard container on a post there. Which was only 2 blocks away from our hotel. The next day we had to call the dealership to see if the car was going to be fixed they said we had to wait until the afternoon to tell, so we took in the museum, then we finally found out that the car was not going to be ready for us to go to Tigh Na Mara. We had planned on leaving that day, I was really bummed I really didn't want to spend another day in Victoria and I was going to lose 200 bucks on the room for the resort. So B suggested we rent a car instead.

We finally make it to Tigh Na Mara and man was it ever nice there. We drove out to a beach and had some icecream and then we we picked up some food and took it back to the resort and watched Beverly Hills 90210. We were pretty tired from the day and went to bed. We woke up and got ready. Went for a walk down on the beach on the resort it was fun. I dug for some clams ,but they were too tiny to eat. I wouldn't have eaten them anyways, I just wanted to see how far down they bury themselves. Then it was off the the Grotto Spa, ooooo sooo worth the money. We had a glacial wrap, then we ended off with a couples massage. It was so great, my skin feels so soft from the treatments, and apparently B could be persuaded to do that again, even the glacial wrap. We ended the day off by going for dinner out, then to bed early.

Next day was the drive back home 15 hours worth of driving. Ughh. We woke up at 0530 got everything in the car for the drive back to go get my car. If we didn't have to go and get my car we wouldn't have to drive 2 hours to get to the ferry. We stil managed to hit up the enchanted forest on the way back, we decided to give the car a rest. It's quite a place, you would never know all that was in the forest from the highway. We made it home Sunday at 0130, we were both beat from the drive. All in all the vacation was good despite the break in.

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We were enjoying ourselves on this trip.  We took in the Ghostly walk last night, absolutely was fun and creepy. There were not very many photo opportunities. We got back at 11:30 pm  and were just beat we were asleep  by midnight. We were just starting to move in bed when the phone rang, not a wake up call, but the front desk calling to say that someone came to tell them that a car appears to be broken into and they think it is our car. I go running to my car and sure enough, the drivers window was smashed in. The losers took our bottles of wine that we had hidden in the back, they were gifts as well, and they took a pair of my sunglasses and a pair of B's. Now we are sitting trying to make arrangements with the spa because the window is going to take about 24 hours to fix, waiting for parts from the dealership on the motherland. I really don't want to stay in this shithole another night, but I will definately be giving expedia some bad reviews on this hotel.

I am pretty sure we are staying in a haunted Hotel. It smells like an old time museum. Don't worry I've got my camera on the ready to snap a pic, If i encounter any. 

On the ferry ride to the island we managed to see some killer whales from a distance that was cool. pictures will follow when i have time to edit things.

Well the wedding is over, and my feet are still killing me. I bought some shoes to match my dress and they began to hurt my feet on the walk to the beach. Since B was the best man, I was left alone to go the wedding. The other groomsman's fiance was left the same way so we made our way there ourselves. We were waiting for the resort shuttle to pick us up but we were waiting for 20 minutes, so we decided to walk it. Being in the mountains the terrain was not made for walking in heals. I knew it was going to be on a beach but I didn't  realize that I would be walking on a gravel path to get there. Turns out that the shuttle forgot to pick up the bride and she was late 20 minutes for her own wedding. Poor thing, the groom had to borrow my cell phone to check up on her. All in all it was a beautiful day for the wedding. I met a few more people that B knows, met this one girl that has been described rubs ppl the wrong way. Well I did get a taste of it, not to me directly, but more of a witness to it. I was sitting next to the grooms mother, she's a great lady,  this other girl all of a sudden sits down and comes right out and says "I hear you hate me, that is the word on the street". I tried to keep my facial expression neutral, but wow did I ever want to get out of there quickly. The mother took the diplomatic way out and said "I barely know you, how could I hate you?" I could not stop staring at this girl all night long because of how she did her makeup. It was the grossest makeup job I have ever seen on a girl ever. My best description is... it looked like it was melting off of her face, and it was 2 shades too dark for her skin tone, and she needed to add a bit more color other than the white eyeliner. I had the privilege of having her sit at our table. After she said that to the grooms mother, I knew I didn't like her. But really who does that at a wedding of all places?

Now that the wedding is over we are heading to Victoria and enjoying our vacation. It was such a great location for a wedding. This is the first pic of me and B I have posted on here.

I will be posting possibly during the rest of the vacation, because I'm apparently addicted to my computer.

This week all of a sudden I'm being asked to do all this stuff being apart of the social committee. The honest truth is I thought i wasn't on it anymore because the other girl hasn't been talking to me. It's been 5 months and barely 2 sentences have been said to me. Still flabergasted by the behavior, but I've moved on. So we had 2 high school students doing various jobs around the lab for the summer and tomorrow is their last day. I was asked to start organizing for an impromptu pizza party to say bye and thanks to them. Suddenly this girl is talking to me in the staff room asking me how my trainee is doing. I was like WTF?? in my head.

Any hoo, it's been kinda eventful but yet uneventful. I'm at the point that I'm glad that I made the decision to leave the lab. Yesturday, another person was quite rude to me, the I can't believe they just did that kind. This person asked me about a specimen, I made a suggestion but wasn't quite sure if the testing area would do it and told this person to check with them first. So this person pulled the orders on th specimen and talked to the department, not getting the answer he was looking for, he came behind my back and quietly said fucking dim wit to me in my ear. The way he said it made me feel that he had called me that because I only suggested that he check with the department. I wasn't sure, I don't know everything in the lab, damn near it tho.

I'm working a 9 day stretch and tomorrow is day number 9 then we are off to Kelowna for our vacation. With all the bull crap going on at work I can not wait for my vacation. I'm hoping that it will relieve alot of stress and help me deal with it better. After the vacation I will be putting out my resumes and getting the hell out of there.

What do we have planned for our vacation?
Well I think I'm going to make myself a 4 in 1 half persian  necklace, while B is golfing. Then we are going to be doing some stuff for the wedding we are attending, B is the best man.  After the wedding we will be staying in Victoria for 4 days. In Victoria we will be doing a bus tour, and then we will be going on a ghost walk. After Victoria we'll be staying in Naniamo  at a spa resort, where B has signed us up for a couples massage, and a glacial mud treatment. I am looking forward to the massage.